Repentance

Repentance

I've fallen and sinned
Should be beyond saving
But God I still hear Your voice
When I'm out doing bad things
Why don't You give up on me?
We came only when we need


And leave when we are freed
How could You put up with that?
But I guess it/s that kindness that saved me

I tripped for the hundred time
High and drunk
And You were here holding my hand
To save a wretch like me

Plans After Graduation

Name         : Aurellia Tanica Indrawan

Grade        : 12 IPA

Subject      : English (Writing)

Date          : 14 February 2017

Plans After Graduation

Senior high school is a wonderful time, it was filled with a wide range of emotions, expectations, and plans. It’s a time spent reflecting back on all those years in the classroom while looking ahead to new adventures of college. I often wonder about my future as I am about to finish secondary school. “What will you do during your leisure time after graduation?” is a common question. When I was faced by that question, I overthink and without noticing, it kills me slowly. Deciding my plans after graduation is not as easy as flipping my hands because I’m the type of person that wants to have a productive free time, but on the other side, I can’t make decisions easily.

There are numerous things that I want to do and accomplish in my life. Before I start my college life, I'm planning to do an internship at a local company. I’m longing to have barista as my job for internship because I find it interesting and I am eager to discover it. One fundamental reason is to try something new (positive ones), from that I also can learn how to serve others and get the experience of making espresso-based coffee drinks. Basically, I’m the type of person that loves to learn something new and I won’t limit myself to explore my talents.

Besides, I want to dedicate myself as a kid leader at my church. Actually, that idea crosses over my mind since I sit on junior high school. I have a desire to help others and make an impact on people’s lives, but I never have the courage due to my low self-esteem. For me, sharing God’s Word is awkward and I’m also afraid to be judged, but I hope I can overcome it with God’s help.

Not only that, I also love to play musical instruments, especially guitar. Music is my drugs, it soothes me and also revitalizes my soul, more importantly Christian songs. Whenever I feel down, I hear Christians songs and the lyrics strengthen me. I’m also aspired to bless others through my music performance. I hope I can form a band in the future so that someday I can perform in cafés, weddings, or somewhere else and earn money at the same time.  In order to achieve that, I’ll practice more on guitar by the help of my brothers in Christ.

When I step on my next stone, which is a university, I’ll prepare myself for my first year so that I can achieve the highest scores in my first year and keep excelling until I graduate. I want to be involved in various social clubs, because during my high school, I never participated in any student organizations and I regretted it. I thought it was useless and it would bring no benefit for me, but then I realized that there are lots of values that I can gain. Being part of an organization allows me to put all of those things I’ve been learning in class to the real-world trials. It will build my soft skills that allow me to interact with others successfully, like communication, attitude, and work ethics. The other important thing that I can get is networking opportunities. By having network, it will help me in my future career.  Expanding my network also develops my leadership skills that will be valuable in all areas of my life.

These plans that I’ve made won’t be happen if God doesn’t interfere. Just like this quote “Sometimes you are not given what you want because something better is planned for you instead.” I believe that God’s plan is always the best. Sometimes the process is painful and hard, but I recognize when God is silent, He is doing something for me. Here is a verse that I love “Commit your work to the Lord, and your plans will be established.” Proverbs 16:3